July 2011
22 posts
i can’t help but thinking, that everything is from perfect.
If i could id be the happiest i could ever possible be. all i want is to smile like i never had, i want my happiness to take over me in a way that it hasn’t before. i want to fall in love. i want to be happy.
I could have kissed you
under cherry blossoms,
pale petals drifting down
like the trees wanted to
pretend they could be
snowclouds.I could have kissed you
in the rain, drenched to
our bones and not even
caring that the skies
opened up above us
and tried to wash us out.I could have…
I honestly have never been so unhappy with my life, the last few days have led me into a great deal of depression and stupidity. i can openly admit that in ever way. tomorrow i’m going to the beach with my best friend and i cant say that i will be sober one minute of it. because lets get real here, drugs & alcohol are going to take over. Im going to fuck the family over when they see that my hips are pierced, stupid right? im 18. let me do what i want. Anywho. im so over this life. big changes are ahead of me.
girls are crazy, why do i keep trying to date them. wahhhhhh
i’m hurt and upset.
that’s what is wrong with me.
I SUPPOSE, im broken.
You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose.