i can’t help but thinking, that everything is from perfect.
If i could id be the happiest i could ever possible be. all i want is to smile like i never had, i want my happiness to take over me in a way that it hasn’t before. i want to fall in love. i want to be happy.
I honestly have never been so unhappy with my life, the last few days have led me into a great deal of depression and stupidity. i can openly admit that in ever way. tomorrow i’m going to the beach with my best friend and i cant say that i will be sober one minute of it. because lets get real here, drugs & alcohol are going to take over. Im going to fuck the family over when they see that my hips are pierced, stupid right? im 18. let me do what i want. Anywho. im so over this life. big changes are ahead of me.
girls are crazy, why do i keep trying to date them. wahhhhhh
i’m hurt and upset.
that’s what is wrong with me.
I SUPPOSE, im broken.
You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose.